It was the day before Halloween and I was excited and ready to be a Matador for a Halloween party at Beauty Bar. However, before I got into full costume for the nights festivities I decided to make use of my spanish pinup hairstyle and vintage Matador hat by sporting one of my new Pinup Girl Clothing dresses from their Spanish Capsule Collection. Yea, I’m one of those people who sometimes likes to sport two different outfits in one day haha. During the daytime, Inspired by the elegant and regal costumes of Matadors and the beauty and romance of Flamenco dancers, I wore a dress called the Señorita dress from PUG. I wanted to wear something I could wear out that didn’t look like a costume because it wasn’t Halloween yet but who am I kidding, any person would think I was still in costume but that’s ok. Every day is Halloween! Anyway, I love that this dress comes with a cute bolero because sometimes it gets a little nippy at night here in Vegas. It looks sooo good with my vintage Mongolian lamb fur matador hat I purchased just a week before at The Attic here in Las Vegas. Boy was I lucky to have found a REAL vintage matador hat just a week before Halloween to go with my costume and this outfit! I also added a red rose for a pop of contrast. And you know, because it was the day before Halloween, I also wore a cute coffin-shaped purse called “To Die For” by Tatyana with my patent leather Maryl Christian Louboutin pumps. Sadly, I didn’t get to take many photos of my night outfit which was my actual matador costume but I have a few. See how I transitioned my matador look from day-to-night by clicking below! Read More
I realized there might not be someone walking around this earth just waiting to meet me. Someone with a private world just as intricate as mine that, one day, I would get to share and be a part of and know.
And I realized I was keeping a vacant spot in my heart for this person who might not exist. That I wasn’t allowing myself to be whole because how could I be whole with my other half missing?
It was an excuse, of course. A simple view of life that would exempt me from having to put in the effort of filling myself up with the love I was waiting for someone else to supply.
The reality is this: Life is a churning, chaotic thing with no guarantees, and in the throws of the tumbling you might run into people to hold on to for a while. Sometimes for a night, sometimes for life.
And holding on to someone is a worthy thing. A wonderful thing. Something to look forward to and appreciate and embrace with your whole heart.
But the love you get from holding on to someone will never be as reliable as the love you can give yourself. Right here. Right now.
So here’s my advice. Be open to love, but don’t be empty for it.
|—||Open, Not Empty - John Paul Brammer|
I hope this hit a soft spot for all of you too.<3
Not sure if I believe in solemates, but I do believe in unconditional love. I’m living proof of it. However, love chooses you, and that’s the sad part. You don’t get to choose who you love but you get to choose how you express it or not. You could go on loving the wrong person unconditionally while they love someone else. It’s a scary possibility. So all I can do is love myself and always just a tad bit more than I love someone else. This is how you stay grounded instead of falling with no parachute. This is how you avoid, emptiness.
Love you all<3
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Well…I will be 28 on November 9th and wow does time fly. I am not one of those people who are afraid to age. However, every year I look back hoping I have made progress, not just with my goals but progress with who I am as a person so I get a little anxiety every time my birthday comes around. I want to grow and become a stronger, wiser, and more productive version of myself. Year 27 was completely crazy but absolutely rewarding. I mean…I moved cross-country from New York to Las Vegas, said goodbye to everything I know to live a whole new life surrounded by new people and a new job. It’s been great. I mean, I have my ups and downs. Can’t always be peachy. So sometimes, life is a little bit of a roller coaster. I had to adjust to this new life and all of the new people I met and a new job that took me a few months to really master..But I did it. I did it all and I learned so much about myself and others along the way. It’s crazy to think that it has already been almost a year here in Vegas. It feels like I just got on that one way plane just yesterday. Now I live in a beautiful home with my best friend, I have a ton of new friends, I have traveled all over the US, and have had great opportunities. I am so grateful for all that I accomplished and learned by taking this giant leap of faith but I’ve got a long ways to go.
Since the past few months have been a little hectic, there are a few posts I had pending that I never even published like this one! This outfit is from the 4th of July when I wore this ADORABLE kissable two piece set I bought at Pinkbowcity.com whilst I was ordering one of their magazines. One of my readers emailed me about it which is why I remembered to post this (thank you!). Anyway, I miss posting outfit posts. I have been slacking hard lately, mainly because I have been busy focusing on other things but also because I haven’t really been inspired. I have been blogging since 2008 and though I have had many amazing opportunities, I can’t help but feel like my blog is still underrated. I have put so much work into this blog and though I am happy for the success of other bloggers, all I see is the same trends being repeated and a lack of honesty when representing brands. There is a lack of authenticity which is why blogging became so popular in the first place. Blogging was a platform for the nonconformist fashionistas with unfiltered opinions. My blog continues to stay true to who I am and what I really think about life, love, and fashion. I really wanted to turn this into a movement but what felt like a bright flame of inspiration turned into smoke. Not sure if I am going to continue and If I do, it looks like it’s going to be kind of like this where I only publish one post a week if I am lucky enough to have an inch of inspiration and motivation. For those of you who have been following me and rooting for me from a distance..Thank you. Your messages and comments really do motivate me and inspire me to keep going. Ive got to get out of this rut.
Anyway, here are a few photos of that cute outfit I wore for the 4th of July<3 Read More
I had to cram 2 days into one post because I barely got the chance to take photos on day two because it was a crazy day! When I say crazy, I mean in the best way. Our Pinup Girl Clothing Yard Sale at Slapback NYC was a HUGE success! We had a line that wrapped around the block! Anyway, before I get to that let me start off with how the day panned out. Our first stop was Lincoln center where we met up with all of the pugsters again to promote our awesome message that beauty is not a size and that we create couture for everyone. It was such an empowering meet up and again, girls were shot by street style photographers which made them all feel as special as they actually are<3. Then we wer off to Dos Camino’s for some grub where we got to talk fashion and everything else with our new friends. Lincoln center was packed with fashionistas but the pugsters stood out like sore thumbs. We had a blast meeting one another and had such a lovely lunch before the craziness of the PUG Yard Sale at one of my favorite Rockabilly shops, SlapBack. We arrived at the Yard Sale by cab with our jaws down to the floor as we passed a long line of gorgeous girls patiently waiting for the sale to begin. I was especially excited that I was going to see my girl Renee (the owner of Slapback) as I haven’t seen her in months since I moved to Vegas. My family met us there too so I was so happy I got to spend time with them even though the sale was nuts haha. As soon as we opened the doors it was every man for himself as girls piled dresses and separates over their shoulders. We had to give them a limit to how many pieces they could buy because we were running out so fast. Within the first hour we were already sold out of 95% of our merchandise so to be fair, we gave gift cards to anyone who was still waiting outside because we knew by the time they came in, there would be nothing left. After things simmered down Micheline gave her awesome eyebrow tutorial and Laura mingled with the pugsters and gave tips on how to wear her pieces. It was a HUGE success and Renee did such a great job hosting such a memorable event for NYC. It was our first east coast yard sale and I hope we can continue to do it again every year.
After the craziness of the PUG Yard sale we all headed over to the Cobra club where they were serving signature PUG cocktails, Micheline and Laura sang Karaoke, and I got to mingle with my friends who stopped by. It was so much fun but by the end of the day, I was brain-dead haha.
The next day of PUGNYFW was just as awesome. The plan was to meet my girl Elizabeth Taylor for a vintage crawl downtown. It was so much fun going from one vintage/thrift store to the next. We even took a detour and went to a wig shop where we all bought half wigs and more haha! We literally shopped till we dropped and just before heading home we all watched the sun set at the High Line. It was one of the highlights of my trip and made me miss New York even more than I have been the past few months. I can’t tell you how thankful I am to have been given the opportunity to travel with PUG to NY where I met so many great people, had such amazing experiences, and got to see my friends and family. I am overwhelmed with gratitude and glad I work for such an amazing company who aims to inspire and empower and we took over NYFW by doing just that! Read More