God I miss San Diego and all of the BP cruisers. Ever since I came back I’ve just been working on how I’m going to get back to San Diego. The people and the culture was just beautiful, I want to bop, jive, and stroll. I want to see hot rods and wear all of my 50’s dresses that have been collecting dust since I got my new uniformed job.
So here’s the plan.
I’m going to go to Viva Las Vegas this year. The C.O if Bettie page clothing told me that If I go to Viva she wants me to model in the runway show. That would be pretty awesome to participate in such a huge event. I’m so excited. I’m going to go with a couple of friends so it should be pretty cool, I’m hoping that I’ll meet a lot of people out there so when I move to west coast, I at least know some people. I know people there now, but too much is never enough! ;)…I just joined pinuplifestyle.com. Bernie Dexter told me I should join and I met a few people in the NY area that were fans of the lifestyle. It’s sad that the scene here is almost non-existent.
As far as burlesque goes, I’ll probably start doing some stage kitten work in the next few weeks. Start making my way up the latter. I have a lot of amazing ideas that will probably blow the minds of so many people. I want to be creative, I want my costumes to be brilliant, I want to show the world what I’ve got.
cross your fingers for me X.
“Friends don’t exist”
Growing up I went through so many friends, however, the only ones Ive managed to keep are the guys. What is it about us girls that enables us to be friends and stay as friends without any animosity, betrayal, gossip, or jealousy?. My issue has never been any of those things, In fact, my only issue was the fact that I wouldn’t open up with my friends. I have major trust issues, can you blame me?. I always thought that this was more of a positive issue than a negative issue because I’m sure it kept me away from alot of people who would have stabbed me in the back. I can always count on my gut feeling to keep me away from conniving people, but what If my gut feeling starts keeping me away from friends Ive had for a long time now, friends I felt safe with. I’m wondering….Is it me?, could this be me panicking from my last experiences?
This year has definitely broken me down, the people I thought would never hurt me, have, and friends just fade in and out. People change, I guess that was never a reality I chose to except, but we do, and with those changes come sacrifices, It just sucks because I feel like I have always been the same. Ive always been loyal, I take loyalty to the heart and if anyone is slightly decietful, I will distance myself and never be the same. Maybe people come in and out of our lives because we learn from each other, and when we learn all that we can from them, they coincidentally fade…
I don’t know..but for a week now I have distanced myself for some breathing room, I have alot to think about, and alot to evaluate before I get back to the world of “friends”.