“There are times when you simply must stop thinking — but how do you do that? The first rule is don’t try to, because if you do, you will be like someone trying to make rough water smooth with a flat iron, and all that will do is stir it up. You have to know how to leave your mind alone; it will quiet itself.”
I always thought anxiety wasn’t that big of a deal until I started experiencing what anxiety really is. For the past two years its made my life a living hell. I can’t get my mind to be quiet, I have trouble sleeping, I lose my appetite, and I have trouble knowing how to deal with it. Now when people say they have anxiety, I have a better understanding of what its like when your chest closes up, your walls start feeling like they are caving in, you worry about things that may or may not be real, and you can’t shut your mind off. I often have to shut myself out from the world completely just to think straight and its caused me, my friends, and my family grief having to deal with this on going problem. I’ve never really spoken about it in public but I thought it might help to be honest about this issue just incase any of you are going through the same thing. That constant worry and dealing with triggers that remind you of past traumas is sometimes debilitating. Lately, I haven’t been able to keep my anxiety under control. Its even worse when you feel no one really understands. I am going to see a therapist which is not very easy to say but if any of you have any tips, I would greatly appreciate it.
I listen to Alan Watts a lot. He is an incredible philosopher who sometimes gets me through my day. This video helped me today and I though I would share it with all of you. If any of you are going through the same thing, I wish you a fast and wonderful recovery and hope that I, too, can learn to let go of worry.