It was my favorite holiday of the year, HALLOWEEN, and I was ready to kick some major ass in my Scorpion costume. This was a last-minute execution of an old idea (I’ve been wanting to do this for some time now) so I basically frankensteined an already made mens costume into a women’s costume to have it done on time. Though this may seem like an easy task, it really wasn’t lol. I had to resew elastic bands to all of the pieces because they popped the minute I put the costume on, I had to sew pieces of the costume to a body suit, I had to buy a full face mask and cut out a hole for my face that was accurate (I had to purchase 2 because I messed up the 1st time), and I painted my swords with nail polish to match everything. I had no time at all to make a chain spear but I made the best of it. I’m going to wear this costume again for Comicon but it’ll be the upgraded version I had initially pictured in my head that is more accurate of the character. Anyway, let me tell you how I discovered Scorpion. When I was a kid, I loved video games. I loved them more than any other toy or gadget a kid could play with. As a tomboy who hadn’t yet discovered what feminism was; I would get very upset when games didn’t have female characters. Guess I started early? haha. So naturally when I would come across a video game that had women in them, I would pick the female character by default. When Mortal Kombat first came out, the only female character they had was Sonya. She was the only character I played but whenever I would have to fight Scorpion I would always be so impressed with his moves. Sounds romantic doesn’t it? haha. Anyway, he became one of the only male characters I willingly decided to play in a game that had a female character I could choose. I just thought he was so cool and that cool never left me after all of these years so it made sense as a Scorpio who usually celebrates her birthday on Halloween, to just go as Scorpion. Him and Sonya amongst other characters from different games like Cammy and Chung Li from Street Fighter were such a huge part of my childhood. It was really cute to be stopped by a bunch of gamers who were big fans of Scorpion and really loved that I gave it a female twist. However, I wasn’t the first, there are tons of female cosplayers who have done scorpion so I tried to give it my own twist. It came out amazing to say the least and I had the best time walking around Vegas with my friends. My costume caused a frenzy wherever I went and it was pretty cool that I didn’t bump into anyone with the same costume except for men haha. There’s a timeline of my night inside along with photos of my friends who also had great costumes! Read More
It was the day before Halloween and I was excited and ready to be a Matador for a Halloween party at Beauty Bar. However, before I got into full costume for the nights festivities I decided to make use of my spanish pinup hairstyle and vintage Matador hat by sporting one of my new Pinup Girl Clothing dresses from their Spanish Capsule Collection. Yea, I’m one of those people who sometimes likes to sport two different outfits in one day haha. During the daytime, Inspired by the elegant and regal costumes of Matadors and the beauty and romance of Flamenco dancers, I wore a dress called the Señorita dress from PUG. I wanted to wear something I could wear out that didn’t look like a costume because it wasn’t Halloween yet but who am I kidding, any person would think I was still in costume but that’s ok. Every day is Halloween! Anyway, I love that this dress comes with a cute bolero because sometimes it gets a little nippy at night here in Vegas. It looks sooo good with my vintage Mongolian lamb fur matador hat I purchased just a week before at The Attic here in Las Vegas. Boy was I lucky to have found a REAL vintage matador hat just a week before Halloween to go with my costume and this outfit! I also added a red rose for a pop of contrast. And you know, because it was the day before Halloween, I also wore a cute coffin-shaped purse called “To Die For” by Tatyana with my patent leather Maryl Christian Louboutin pumps. Sadly, I didn’t get to take many photos of my night outfit which was my actual matador costume but I have a few. See how I transitioned my matador look from day-to-night by clicking below! Read More
I realized there might not be someone walking around this earth just waiting to meet me. Someone with a private world just as intricate as mine that, one day, I would get to share and be a part of and know.
And I realized I was keeping a vacant spot in my heart for this person who might not exist. That I wasn’t allowing myself to be whole because how could I be whole with my other half missing?
It was an excuse, of course. A simple view of life that would exempt me from having to put in the effort of filling myself up with the love I was waiting for someone else to supply.
The reality is this: Life is a churning, chaotic thing with no guarantees, and in the throws of the tumbling you might run into people to hold on to for a while. Sometimes for a night, sometimes for life.
And holding on to someone is a worthy thing. A wonderful thing. Something to look forward to and appreciate and embrace with your whole heart.
But the love you get from holding on to someone will never be as reliable as the love you can give yourself. Right here. Right now.
So here’s my advice. Be open to love, but don’t be empty for it.
|—||Open, Not Empty – John Paul Brammer|
I hope this hit a soft spot for all of you too.<3
Not sure if I believe in solemates, but I do believe in unconditional love. I’m living proof of it. However, love chooses you, and that’s the sad part. You don’t get to choose who you love but you get to choose how you express it or not. You could go on loving the wrong person unconditionally while they love someone else. It’s a scary possibility. So all I can do is love myself and always just a tad bit more than I love someone else. This is how you stay grounded instead of falling with no parachute. This is how you avoid, emptiness.
Love you all<3
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Well…I will be 28 on November 9th and wow does time fly. I am not one of those people who are afraid to age. However, every year I look back hoping I have made progress, not just with my goals but progress with who I am as a person so I get a little anxiety every time my birthday comes around. I want to grow and become a stronger, wiser, and more productive version of myself. Year 27 was completely crazy but absolutely rewarding. I mean…I moved cross-country from New York to Las Vegas, said goodbye to everything I know to live a whole new life surrounded by new people and a new job. It’s been great. I mean, I have my ups and downs. Can’t always be peachy. So sometimes, life is a little bit of a roller coaster. I had to adjust to this new life and all of the new people I met and a new job that took me a few months to really master..But I did it. I did it all and I learned so much about myself and others along the way. It’s crazy to think that it has already been almost a year here in Vegas. It feels like I just got on that one way plane just yesterday. Now I live in a beautiful home with my best friend, I have a ton of new friends, I have traveled all over the US, and have had great opportunities. I am so grateful for all that I accomplished and learned by taking this giant leap of faith but I’ve got a long ways to go.
Since the past few months have been a little hectic, there are a few posts I had pending that I never even published like this one! This outfit is from the 4th of July when I wore this ADORABLE kissable two piece set I bought at Pinkbowcity.com whilst I was ordering one of their magazines. One of my readers emailed me about it which is why I remembered to post this (thank you!). Anyway, I miss posting outfit posts. I have been slacking hard lately, mainly because I have been busy focusing on other things but also because I haven’t really been inspired. I have been blogging since 2008 and though I have had many amazing opportunities, I can’t help but feel like my blog is still underrated. I have put so much work into this blog and though I am happy for the success of other bloggers, all I see is the same trends being repeated and a lack of honesty when representing brands. There is a lack of authenticity which is why blogging became so popular in the first place. Blogging was a platform for the nonconformist fashionistas with unfiltered opinions. My blog continues to stay true to who I am and what I really think about life, love, and fashion. I really wanted to turn this into a movement but what felt like a bright flame of inspiration turned into smoke. Not sure if I am going to continue and If I do, it looks like it’s going to be kind of like this where I only publish one post a week if I am lucky enough to have an inch of inspiration and motivation. For those of you who have been following me and rooting for me from a distance..Thank you. Your messages and comments really do motivate me and inspire me to keep going. Ive got to get out of this rut.
Anyway, here are a few photos of that cute outfit I wore for the 4th of July<3 Read More